I have so many things to tell you.
So many things I want to say to you.
Words that form in my head,
Day after day.
But for some reason…
I just can't seem to speak them aloud.
So instead of letting these thoughts pour out,
Allowing the sound of my voice to fill the air,
I sit in silence with you.
I really want to talk to you about them.
I really do.
But sometimes I am afraid.
So very terrified of the consequences that could come.
If I just let one of the words slip out.
My worries, and hopes, and dreams…
I wish to whisper them all to you.
So what the hell is stopping me?
The same thing that stops everyone in their tracks.
But… I want to
But I can't.
I want to!
Just give me a few minutes, a few seconds.
Really, that's all I need.
Just a little bit of time to think it over.
I'll tell you everything, I promise.
I just have to remember how to be brave again.